This is where we begin and end ...
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
The City At Our Feet
We came out into the open air and stopped in awe. The whole city was laid out at our feet...
...The skyscrapers and towers of downtown formed an island in the distant haze.
Fire and Gold
We came to the promenade that led directly east to a sunken plaza -- the site of the ice rink in winter -- guarded by a gleaming gold statue of Prometheus, eternally stealing fire from the gods ...
Radio City
I kept looking at the altitude reading: over 800 feet. That had to be the very top of the tower. The old observation deck. But it had been closed for 20 years.
40°45'33.00"N, 73°58'45.60"W
Diamond Pillar
Pressing on north but not stopping, Horace pointed to a brightly coloured frieze in deep reds, greens and yellows atop a tall building on the east side of Fifth ...
... At 47th Street, at the entrance to the Diamond District, there are two light towers in the form of stylised octagonal diamonds. Horace asked me if I wanted to climb one. I didn't find it funny.
... At 47th Street, at the entrance to the Diamond District, there are two light towers in the form of stylised octagonal diamonds. Horace asked me if I wanted to climb one. I didn't find it funny.
The Twins
Horace led us directly across the street to an white stone arched gate, carved with figures of the zodiac. The Gemini twins at the bottom of the left hand column freaked me out. They looked unearthly ...
In the Periodical Room
“Take a few minutes before we begin and consider these paintings,” Horace said.
We sat in silence for perhaps five minutes. I felt Horace holding us in his mind with great love.
We sat in silence for perhaps five minutes. I felt Horace holding us in his mind with great love.
...“Like many things, they are an illusion,” he finally said. “It is all a question of learning to look. Let us begin.”
Signal Tower Detail
Horace told me to take a close look at the top, between the traffic lights. And there again were the spiralling snakes.
Traffic Signal Tower - 42nd and 5th
Against one wall, in a glass case, was a three-foot tall model, in bronze, of what looked like an ornate, Deco-style watchtower. Along the top were three coloured lights ...
... I said if it were lying down it would look like a mummy case. There was a framed drawing of it too, a design plan, on the wall. Terri put her hands on them and concentrated.
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
At the Mossman Lock Collection
The cabinets contained an astonishing collection of locks and keys, most of them mind-bogglingly complex...
...Great iron keys and ornately-scrolled locks from the Renaissance were displayed next to exquisitely-tooled pieces from the 19th and early 20th centuries that looked like code-breaking machines with numbered drums, star wheels and notched cylinders.
Tower of Light
On either side of the tunnel entrance rose Art Deco towers like stylised radio masts, surmounted by powerful searchlights...
...They reminded me of Flash Gordon-era ray-guns. A spiral staircase ran up their core.
Caduceus at the NYPL
“We have five minutes,” Horace said. “I need to jam your mind with things to fuel it. And I don’t mean your intellect.”
...He pointed out the caduceus, beautifully carved into plinths among the library’s outdoor decoration.
Room 315
We walked through to the main reading room of the New York Public Library. Under luminescent trompe-l’oeil ceiling paintings of open skies, ranks upon ranks of readers sat in hushed concentration at oak tables
40°45'11.59"N, 73°58'54.06"W
Image Of Fire
He steered me north towards the platforms, and we entered a walkway signposted as the Northeast Passage. “There is a very interesting piece of artwork along these passages,” Horace said ...
... He pointed left to right. “The elements. Earth. Water. Fire, which is what she holds in her hand. Then Air. Then Ether.”
Hermes at Grand Central Terminal
"We’ll see the same thing at Grand Central. Hermes everywhere, and sculpted wheels set with his wings," Horace said. "It’s about speed, you see. The fleet-footed messenger. But what message does he bear?"
United Nations Aglow
Emerging onto First Avenue at the end of 42nd Street, I checked the Quad. It was pointing me left, and began flashing arriving destination as soon as I started walking ...
... The great green-blue slab of the U.N. Secretariat building and the East River were to my right.
Monday, August 30, 2004
What The Fifth Cache Said To Me
Be your own weather, through intention.
Today I understood this line.
As we advance along the Path, we must balance the forces of earth, water, fire and air. The point of balance shifts and moves constantly. Clinging to any one point tears you apart. Balance must be constantly reacquired, or it will destroy itself. If we align ourselves with the ebbs and flows of nature, we can acquire the strength of nature and even channel and direct some of nature’s own power. This is the power of ether – seeing the interconnection of all things, and our connection to it.
There is a living, shifting border between order and disorder, the point where creation happens. In achieving balance, my will becomes powerful. My intentions come true. I make my own weather. I begin to create my reality around me. Yet the force of ether must not be used for my own gratification, or it will turn on me.
Today I felt for the first time that it was possible – no, necessary – to face down Iwnw with a different currency than their own. I saw the possibility – no, again, the necessity – of finding a form of weapon that they cannot convert into fuel for their own strength.
It is impossible, but also unavoidable. Unthinkable, but also ineluctable: only a form of forgiveness can stop the detonation of the Ma’rifat’. But it must be a muscular form of forgiveness. I want to destroy the Iwnw.
Today I understood this line.
As we advance along the Path, we must balance the forces of earth, water, fire and air. The point of balance shifts and moves constantly. Clinging to any one point tears you apart. Balance must be constantly reacquired, or it will destroy itself. If we align ourselves with the ebbs and flows of nature, we can acquire the strength of nature and even channel and direct some of nature’s own power. This is the power of ether – seeing the interconnection of all things, and our connection to it.
There is a living, shifting border between order and disorder, the point where creation happens. In achieving balance, my will becomes powerful. My intentions come true. I make my own weather. I begin to create my reality around me. Yet the force of ether must not be used for my own gratification, or it will turn on me.
Today I felt for the first time that it was possible – no, necessary – to face down Iwnw with a different currency than their own. I saw the possibility – no, again, the necessity – of finding a form of weapon that they cannot convert into fuel for their own strength.
It is impossible, but also unavoidable. Unthinkable, but also ineluctable: only a form of forgiveness can stop the detonation of the Ma’rifat’. But it must be a muscular form of forgiveness. I want to destroy the Iwnw.
College Grounds
Along Love Lane
The Quad pointed me further southwest. I walked along Sixth to 21st Street and turned right, past the sad, tiny Spanish and Portuguese Synagogue cemetery ...
... I marched on west, along the old Love Lane.
The Water Door
An octagonal window in the main metal door contained a card giving a number to call in case of alarm malfunction.
“What is this?”
...“It’s the entrance to Water Tunnel Number One," Adam said. The image of the tunnel’s course flashed in my mind. Union Square Park. Madison Square Park. Then it would go on to… I saw it.
Pentagram
I crossed the street and walked further along Fifth Avenue, drawn by a flag with a large P emblazoned on it...
...And just past the corner I saw what it represented: at number 204 were offices of a design firm called Pentagram, with its name carved right into the building above the door. Another five.
The Second Obelisk
Walking around the obelisk, I read off General Worth’s battles and honours. Contreras, Churubusco, West Point, Molino del Rey… Monterey, Vera Cruz, San Antonio and City of Mexico ...
... “You were a busy man,” I whispered to myself. “They must really love you in Mexico.”
The Star of Eternal Light
I saw the five-point star carved into its base over the words An Eternal Light, and at the top of the pole, a five-pointed lamp in the form of a star...
...It commemorated military dead in World War One.
Standing Wave
I got off the bus at Madison Square Park. Before me rose the Flatiron Building, the undulations in its long face like ripples frozen in time.
The Stepping Stones
One of the stones wobbled slightly as I put my foot on it. It was a smaller one, a five-pointed starfish...
... I kneeled and gently pulled on it to see if it would move further. It lifted like a lid, and underneath was a sealed plastic 35mm film container.
Atop the RCA Building
I closed my eyes and visualized 570 Lex's glorious summit a few floors above us: lightning bolts pulsing from clenched fists, a riot of spikes, like a crown of thorns...
... symbols of radio waves spitting and crackling out into the ether.
My Place of Work
We met in a conference room near the top of 570 Lex, several floors away from the sensitive eyes and ears of the newsroom, at nine o’clock sharp...
What The Fourth Cache Said To Me
Sometimes the devil’s water brings life.
I am being torn apart, yet I am growing more alive.
I am beginning to hear and see things I would never have believed were possible.
Since these events began, I have lost my job, and been humiliatingly expelled from among my people. Tomorrow I will reckon with them.
I have been attacked and beaten, and left vomiting in the subway.
I have been almost drowned.
I have been almost blown apart in a gas explosion.
I have had the breath crushed out of my lungs.
I have willingly broken my marriage vows, and lost the ring that symbolizes them. I have insulted my wife.
I have experienced a new autonomy, a new self-respect, then hurt my most beloved one in order to retain it. I have indulged my anger and desire for revenge, and I have dressed it up as honesty.
Yet in facing death, in the play of lust in my flesh, I have found strength I never knew I had. I have turned basic urges – kill it, fuck it -- into spiritual weapons, those of earth and water.
In rejecting blackmail, in asserting my utter freedom, I have added the power of fire to those weapons.
In diving into the crowd to rescue that boy, when self-preservation would have had me stay sheltering and cowering where I was, I have, I believe, added the power of air. It is what I used, without knowing how, to calm the crowd.
I am growing stronger as I advance along the Path, though all this strength is only lent to me, is not my own, is not for my vanity or advancement.
It is for Adam, to help him to resist the corrosion of the parasites within him.
It is for Katherine, to help her on the lonely road I have driven her to. If her being with Adam will help him survive these ordeals, then so be it. But I will have her back.
It is for Terri, to help her overcome the hidden new fear I see in her.
It is for Horace, to guide and instruct me as he may need.
Other people are not hell. They are salvation.
There is a shape in my mind that defies words, just as the peregrination I have been on across Manhattan – the shape I have drawn on the city, the experiences at each waypoint – are drawing a shape in my soul.
I am seeing connections where none were apparent, lines and images of new harmonies.. The capacity to speak the language of the birds is awakening within me.
All this, to defeat those who have caused these ordeals to come to us.
I pray for my enemy, since praying for my friends is no virtue.
I forgive myself, for everything I have done has been necessary. I ask the forgiveness of others.
I am ready. I am alive. I will fight.
I am being torn apart, yet I am growing more alive.
I am beginning to hear and see things I would never have believed were possible.
Since these events began, I have lost my job, and been humiliatingly expelled from among my people. Tomorrow I will reckon with them.
I have been attacked and beaten, and left vomiting in the subway.
I have been almost drowned.
I have been almost blown apart in a gas explosion.
I have had the breath crushed out of my lungs.
I have willingly broken my marriage vows, and lost the ring that symbolizes them. I have insulted my wife.
I have experienced a new autonomy, a new self-respect, then hurt my most beloved one in order to retain it. I have indulged my anger and desire for revenge, and I have dressed it up as honesty.
Yet in facing death, in the play of lust in my flesh, I have found strength I never knew I had. I have turned basic urges – kill it, fuck it -- into spiritual weapons, those of earth and water.
In rejecting blackmail, in asserting my utter freedom, I have added the power of fire to those weapons.
In diving into the crowd to rescue that boy, when self-preservation would have had me stay sheltering and cowering where I was, I have, I believe, added the power of air. It is what I used, without knowing how, to calm the crowd.
I am growing stronger as I advance along the Path, though all this strength is only lent to me, is not my own, is not for my vanity or advancement.
It is for Adam, to help him to resist the corrosion of the parasites within him.
It is for Katherine, to help her on the lonely road I have driven her to. If her being with Adam will help him survive these ordeals, then so be it. But I will have her back.
It is for Terri, to help her overcome the hidden new fear I see in her.
It is for Horace, to guide and instruct me as he may need.
Other people are not hell. They are salvation.
There is a shape in my mind that defies words, just as the peregrination I have been on across Manhattan – the shape I have drawn on the city, the experiences at each waypoint – are drawing a shape in my soul.
I am seeing connections where none were apparent, lines and images of new harmonies.. The capacity to speak the language of the birds is awakening within me.
All this, to defeat those who have caused these ordeals to come to us.
I pray for my enemy, since praying for my friends is no virtue.
I forgive myself, for everything I have done has been necessary. I ask the forgiveness of others.
I am ready. I am alive. I will fight.
Sunday, August 29, 2004
At The Tick Tock, Again
I saw CNN had taken over the Tick Tock diner on the corner for the duration of the Convention ...
Bricks of Light
Dulled glass bricks were set into the floor of the pavilion, suggesting there was a chamber below, though I could see no steps down to it ...
... Protestors were swirling around the pavilion, but for the moment none entered. I was alone, at the still point of the turning world.
Burning Snake
I found the edge of one of the patterns, pushing protestors gently aside as I moved, staring intently at the ground and not at their faces. I wheeled to the right and then to the left, back upon myself, towards the park and back again …
... I realized I was walking a labyrinth, a painted spiralling snake in green and yellow and red.
Time Flies, Again
I looked south at the strange steam-emitting sundial artwork on the square’s bottom side, occupying the full wall of a building above the Virgin Megastore. A set of digital numbers flashed in a sequence I’d never been able to fathom.
Look Down at your Feet
“Welcome to Dead Man’s Curve,” Terri said. “Right where you’re standing.”
“Hell of a name.”
“Hell of a game. It’s where the cable cars coming up Broadway used to crash or send people flying as they tried to negotiate the bend. There was no way to decelerate. Sound familiar?”
Pyramids at Union
As I emerged onto 14th Street, at the bottom of Union Square Park, three pyramids appeared on my right, floating on the horizon. I walked towards them ...
... Off in the distance, I could hear drums in the still air, chanting and whistles and shouts.
Saturday, August 28, 2004
Defiance
I crossed the street to the triangular plaque in the street outside Village Cigars, commemorating the refusal of a former owner of the site to sell 500 square inches of his property to the city authorities...
Chess Table at Washington Square Park
“Tables for chess and checkers only. No loitering,” a sign said. “Two hour limit per table. Free for public use. No gambling or fees.”
The Hangmen's Elm
I inspected the Hangmen’s Elm. Only a tiny green plaque on its trunk identified it.
Triangle Fire
... the awful sound of women screaming, falling through the air, some hand in hand, like the poor people who jumped from the Twin Towers, and smashing into the pavement on Greene Street ...
… Young women trapped behind locked and blocked doors on the top floors as the flames tore through the factory, driving them to the windows. An inferno at their backs. Leaping to their deaths. I could feel it. I could see it. The pain was unbearable. The street resonated with violence.
The Bell of Doom
The bolts meant something to me too. Indefinable images rushed at me. I placed my hands on the bell, closing my eyes, hearing again the chanting in my dream. Fat Mary Fat Mary Fat Mary …
... I couldn’t. I willed the images away, and with them the fear.
Emmet's Vault
Emmet’s vault was a stone slab in the paved churchyard. The image of an empty chamber beneath an obelisk teased at my mind...
The Hare Krishna Tree
I found a plaque on the fence nearby. It was an American Elm. Ulmus americana...
...On October 9, 1966, it said, AC Bhakhtivedanta Swami Prabhupada and his followers sat beneath the tree and held the first outdoor chanting session outside of India of Hare Krishna, Hare Krishna, Krishna Krishna, Hare Hare…
Chess Table at Tompkins Square Park
Someone settled into the seat behind me.
“Don’t turn round, Robert,” a man’s voice said. “It’s time for us to talk.”
“Adam?”
“Just don’t turn round.”
“What the hell?”
...“This is a place of great holiness and great loss, you know? Terrible sadness. Lots of homeless people, lots of desperation, lots of lost faith, lost hope. Then there’s some joy, too. Dancing and singing. If you know where to look.”
Red Square
As soon as I had a fix on the waypoint I half ran along Essex Street...
Friday, August 27, 2004
What The Second Cache Said To me
Today was the trial by water. Find God in the sea of sex. I have never felt so fully known, so fully electrified, so fully comfortable with another human being. Having her utterly in my power. Being utterly in her power. But my sexual desire cannot be for Terri. It has to be for Katherine. I have to fold it back toward her.
Terri at Mercer
"In a curtained room, in a secret bower
Seek the sacred rose, find the holy flower
She’s on display, and ready to play
And none can resist her, once they have kissed her ...
To rescue Moon’s daughter ... Pass the trial by water.”
Iron Lotus on Mercer
“Learn to look and you’ll see.”
On the other side of the street there was a design in the black iron columns of an old warehouse… I crossed to look more closely. It was a flower like a lotus, repeated on several of the columns, a flower of black iron. I counted.
“There are 11, Terri.”
Canal Street
Opposite me rose the off-white First National City Bank of New York building, build in Egyptian Revival style in 1927, now housing a shoe store ...
... The GPS signal returned with an accuracy of 40 feet and I headed west.
Vesica Piscis
I walked back to Broadway. The GPS signal returned as I reached the R and the W subway station, the gated grounds of City Hall itself to my right, closed to the public for security reasons. The Quad now said 0.91 miles.
...Something about the subway station entrance railings leaped out at me. A form like a fish was welded into the design. Green metal.
The Malice Box
I tried pressing lightly on the various geometric patterns traced in its sides. Nothing...
Thursday, August 26, 2004
Ground Zero, lower Manhattan
If I look within myself at this place, I return to a memory so painful it still causes me to twist my head away as though ducking a blow. It is the image of a street covered in thick black dust, under thunderclouds, and at the end of the street the still-standing remains of a section of the World Trade Center towers, twisted and blackened and looking like the very mouth of hell, those Gothic arches backlit in the afternoon gloom from the arc lights of the searchers, the damp dust like cinders under my feet and the sheer hatred of the attack reverberating weeks after the towers fell. It caught me by surprise even though I knew it was there, as Katherine and I walked in the rain and held each other, walking in downtown Manhattan to spend some money to support the local vendors, the only time I could bring myself to go.
There was beauty still: the arches persisted, they were not all thrown down, something defiant remained in their shattered suggestion of a cathedral entrance, of praying hands, of a portal that said: through these arches lies a womb, beyond this defilement there is rebirth, even here there will be love.But the overriding pulse in that place was of such anger and hatred that I could not look at it for more than a second or two, I had to walk away, east, toward the Seaport. It will never leave my mind's eye.We have been locked in a labyrinth since that day. How do we react, how does anyone react, to an act of such wickedness and still remain ourselves? You cannot be good unless you survive. But there is a monster within us who out of sheer fear says: do anything, hurt anyone, I don't care: to anyone beyond the bounds of my tribe, anything may be done.
Today I thought I would die. I was so scared that for a moment I wanted anything, anything at all to happen to prevent it. Then suddenly I wasn’t afraid. We were right underneath Ground Zero. I stared into the face of death, and I fought for my life. I saw something in myself I had not seen before, and I came out on the other side. It was the ability, the desire, to kill.
It was dangerous, inchoate, raw energy that poured through me. Blood energy. I know now, with complete confidence, that I can draw on it again, whenever I need it.
Many years ago, someone within my family wrote to me with seven lines of wisdom. The first line was this: To live well, know death.
I think I understand: these were the first energies I had to tap into on the quest I have embarked upon. Raw, powerful, potentially murderous. If I can’t yoke them, I won’t have the strength to survive. But how to harness them?
At Ground Zero the towers fell and St. Paul’s was left intact, not a window broken. A friend of mine, a masseuse, volunteered there for weeks, working on cops and firemen and construction workers, offering real physical compassion as others put together the Chapel's ministry of meals and water, a place to sleep, a place to find some solace for the heart. Yet this was all for "our" people, for those like us who had suffered, those with whom we identified. For "identity" comes from "idem", the same. It is easy to pray for our friends. How many of us can truly pray for our enemies, for those who actively seek our death?
There was beauty still: the arches persisted, they were not all thrown down, something defiant remained in their shattered suggestion of a cathedral entrance, of praying hands, of a portal that said: through these arches lies a womb, beyond this defilement there is rebirth, even here there will be love.But the overriding pulse in that place was of such anger and hatred that I could not look at it for more than a second or two, I had to walk away, east, toward the Seaport. It will never leave my mind's eye.We have been locked in a labyrinth since that day. How do we react, how does anyone react, to an act of such wickedness and still remain ourselves? You cannot be good unless you survive. But there is a monster within us who out of sheer fear says: do anything, hurt anyone, I don't care: to anyone beyond the bounds of my tribe, anything may be done.
Today I thought I would die. I was so scared that for a moment I wanted anything, anything at all to happen to prevent it. Then suddenly I wasn’t afraid. We were right underneath Ground Zero. I stared into the face of death, and I fought for my life. I saw something in myself I had not seen before, and I came out on the other side. It was the ability, the desire, to kill.
It was dangerous, inchoate, raw energy that poured through me. Blood energy. I know now, with complete confidence, that I can draw on it again, whenever I need it.
Many years ago, someone within my family wrote to me with seven lines of wisdom. The first line was this: To live well, know death.
I think I understand: these were the first energies I had to tap into on the quest I have embarked upon. Raw, powerful, potentially murderous. If I can’t yoke them, I won’t have the strength to survive. But how to harness them?
At Ground Zero the towers fell and St. Paul’s was left intact, not a window broken. A friend of mine, a masseuse, volunteered there for weeks, working on cops and firemen and construction workers, offering real physical compassion as others put together the Chapel's ministry of meals and water, a place to sleep, a place to find some solace for the heart. Yet this was all for "our" people, for those like us who had suffered, those with whom we identified. For "identity" comes from "idem", the same. It is easy to pray for our friends. How many of us can truly pray for our enemies, for those who actively seek our death?
At the Tick Tock
I stopped off along Route 3 at the Tick Tock diner, all gleaming chrome and burgundy paneling, for coffee and a sandwich and to try to get cleaned up...
Trinity Seal
"Head west. Find an angel. Spiraling angel. Twisting...swirling?
... in the center of the seal stood a figure like a man composed of spinning wheels, or whorls, or a garment of spirals.
Trinity Reflected at One Wall Street
On the Broadway side of the Irving Trust building, the bronzed windows reflected the spire of Trinity against a deep blue sky, and again the crimson flame of the interior leapt out...
"Where have you been, Terri?"
"Hell."
Glimpse of the Red Room
I came to the scalloped corner of One Wall Street that I'd seen from the graveyard earlier, the former Irving Trust building: glorious Art Deco, white stone and blazing gold, like a cathedral made of draped fabric...
Cube
I headed further south, passing the giant red cube on its angle again at Liberty.
...Terri was silent.
Legs
At the Stocking Exchange across the street, in black and gold accents, under the shop window displays of semi-risqué lingerie, strode a line -- into the store, naturally -- of single gold barefoot female legs...
An Amiable Child
She asked: "Do you know what that is?" ...
... “No. A gravestone?”
... “No. A gravestone?”
“Yes. It reads as follows: Erected to the Memory/Of an Amiable Child/St. Claire Pollock/Died 15 July 1797/In the Fifth Year of his Age. It’s up by Riverside Church. A child. Caged off in perpetuity from everything that goes on around it. Hold that image in your mind. You’ll need it later. Trust me. It’s going to look like a game, but it’s not."
Terri, again
“We’ve been lovers for about a year. Since the blackout …
... I’m a retired bike messenger. I’m in identity management. I seek God. I make videos. I’m an empath. I switch. I blog. I’m a geocacher. I like sex in public places. I’m an ex-suicide girl, but I won't tell you which one. I’m a tour guide. I’m a healer. I scare people.”
Terri
Whoever it was, was not online. I looked up the name. TerriC1111. And the user profile:
Name: Terri, 22/F
Location: Between Hades and Earth. Eliot likes me "throbbing between two lives”
Gender: Female
Marital Status: Open. To myself, to the divine
Hobbies & Interests: Vaticination. Seduction. Speaking the language of the birds, the green language
Favourite Gadgets: Myself; my eyes :)
Occupation: Seer, guide, lover.
Personal Quote: Two snakes I spy, entwined in the act of love
One I scotch, the female, and am myself made woman
For seven years
Till the same snakes I spy again, again lost in love's act
The male I scotch, and am myself made male again.
So the seasons turn ...
In short, some deeply weird shit.”
What The First Cache Said To Me
Terri
I don't know how you want me to do this. Connect the cached items and the site, you say. The inner world and the outer.
So: I am getting lots of death, naturally. You sent me to two graveyards, venerated places, one to crack a code about death, one to dig in the grounds of one of the oldest buildings in Manhattan, you sent me back to the beginnings of this city among flowers and stones and grass to gaze upon the great gaping hole at Ground Zero ... the church that was somehow spared when the spars and beams of the twin towers came hurtling down toward the ground.
You had me gaze upon the place that fills me with anger at the primitive emotions it arouses in me, and you had me root around like someone not entirely sane or presentable among the gravestones till I found your cache, and in it, a bullet cartridge. So yes, death. Death and survival, and the willingness to lash out and hurt in order to survive. Primal things. Are you going to send me all across the city sinking my fingers into graves? Is this enough? Help me. I don't understand.
George Washington had his own pew at St. Paul's, you can still see it. He prayed there after being sworn in down the street at Federal Hall as the nation's first President. Birth of a nation, from war. Now another war. Destruction, survival. Is this where you want me to go?
I had a friend who was downtown when the towers fell, in fact I sent her there, she said those clouds of dust you see on the videos of that morning were full of flying fragments of metal. I drank with her at this bar.
9/11 was an act designed to provoke a tribal response. We are all reasonable, civilized people until someone touches our tribal core. Then we change, or maybe we remember. We will kill and more for our tribe. We are all potential torturers. Some things are impossible to forgive.
Terri, what more do you want of me?
I don't know how you want me to do this. Connect the cached items and the site, you say. The inner world and the outer.
So: I am getting lots of death, naturally. You sent me to two graveyards, venerated places, one to crack a code about death, one to dig in the grounds of one of the oldest buildings in Manhattan, you sent me back to the beginnings of this city among flowers and stones and grass to gaze upon the great gaping hole at Ground Zero ... the church that was somehow spared when the spars and beams of the twin towers came hurtling down toward the ground.
You had me gaze upon the place that fills me with anger at the primitive emotions it arouses in me, and you had me root around like someone not entirely sane or presentable among the gravestones till I found your cache, and in it, a bullet cartridge. So yes, death. Death and survival, and the willingness to lash out and hurt in order to survive. Primal things. Are you going to send me all across the city sinking my fingers into graves? Is this enough? Help me. I don't understand.
George Washington had his own pew at St. Paul's, you can still see it. He prayed there after being sworn in down the street at Federal Hall as the nation's first President. Birth of a nation, from war. Now another war. Destruction, survival. Is this where you want me to go?
I had a friend who was downtown when the towers fell, in fact I sent her there, she said those clouds of dust you see on the videos of that morning were full of flying fragments of metal. I drank with her at this bar.
9/11 was an act designed to provoke a tribal response. We are all reasonable, civilized people until someone touches our tribal core. Then we change, or maybe we remember. We will kill and more for our tribe. We are all potential torturers. Some things are impossible to forgive.
Terri, what more do you want of me?
Les Halles
Looking into the restaurant away from the street, the light was almost amber. Yellow-gold lighting fixtures played off black-brown wooden backgrounds...
...Looking toward the street, a UPS truck had drawn up outside, painted in brown and yellow, outside the plate glass window on which "Les Halles Brasserie-Rotisserie" was written backwards, as though in Cyrillic or Chinese script...
Ground Zero
I headed down the hill toward Ground Zero. I crossed Church and leaned my forehead against the metal fencing overlooking the huge pit ...
... There was a cross, made of two girders from the site. Holy ground, land laded with hate, yet not heavy with it, not overwhelmingly charged with evil, there was something else, not in the tribal Christian sense of the Cross but still ... there was something that felt like the opposite of fear, that felt like the Pentecostal winds that had swept Manhattan on the first anniversary of 9/11, a scouring wind that carried forgiveness. Could that be possible? I looked into my heart, deep into my memories of that day. No, it was not possible. I couldn’t.
Where The Scavenger Hunt Begins
Cursing, I got my notebook out and read Terri’s clue. Looking directly ahead of me due east was, most certainly, something Egyptian, and a kind of digit. A big old pink-gray stone obelisk.
Proof of Good Faith
I am writing this in accordance with your instructions. I can demonstrate that I've done the following things:
- I went to the first location you gave me. The coordinates correspond to a churchyard overlooking Ground Zero in lower Manhattan.
- I recovered the cached item. I am posting a photograph of it, as requested. A spent bullet casing, hidden in a clear plastic cigar tube. I don't know what it means Should I guess? I have brought it with me.
- Terri, I wish to help you. Are you all right? Who else is looking at this blog? Who set up this website?
- I went to the first location you gave me. The coordinates correspond to a churchyard overlooking Ground Zero in lower Manhattan.
- I recovered the cached item. I am posting a photograph of it, as requested. A spent bullet casing, hidden in a clear plastic cigar tube. I don't know what it means Should I guess? I have brought it with me.
- Terri, I wish to help you. Are you all right? Who else is looking at this blog? Who set up this website?
Breaking the Code
The gravestone in question was easily found...
...Along its upper rim were a series of markings that reminded me vaguely of codes I'd seen in a Sherlock Holmes story. In this case they were not little stick men but dots placed within partial or complete squares.
